He was body shamed in the meme as he had added a couple of pounds compared to his earlier years.
“Today I found myself the subject of an Internet meme. Not for the first time. This one, however, stands out from the rest.
It’s a battle that’s cost me time, opportunities, relationships, and a thousand sleepless nights,” writes Miller, who first opened up about his mental health in 2013 after he came out of the closet. “In 2010, at the lowest point in my adult life, I was looking everywhere for relief/comfort/distraction. And I turned to food. It could have been anything. Drugs. Alcohol. Sex. But eating became the one thing I could look forward to. Count on to get me through. There were stretches when the highlight of my week was a favorite meal and a new episode of Top Chef. Sometimes that was enough. Had to be.”
And I put on weight. Big f—ing deal.
They took my picture, and the photos were published alongside images of me from another time in my career. “Hunk To Chunk.” “Fit To Flab.” Etc. Fighting for my mental health, it was the last thing I needed
Now, when I see that image of me in my red t-shirt, a rare smile on my face, I am reminded of my struggle. My endurance and my perseverance in the face of all kinds of demons. Some within. Some without,” he says, even if the meme’s existence initially took his breath away, in a bad way. “The first time I saw this meme pop up in my social media feed, I have to admit, it hurt to breathe. But as with everything in life, I get to assign meaning. And the meaning I assign to this/my image is Strength. Healing. Forgiveness.Of myself and others.
If you or someone you know is struggling, help is available. Reach out. Text. Send an email. Pick up the phone. Someone cares. They’re waiting to hear from you. He said.